I'll continue.

What if it takes me another week
Another year
Another lifetime
To find my pace
After I lost it for so long?
What if I disappoint them
Once more
Twice more
So may times that they lose count
And can't ever trust me again?
What if I fall in love
With another boy someday
With a whole timeline of other boys
And when I look back on it someday
Each one has a big X next to it
That marks the part where it turned out
I wasn't good enough for him?
What if I try do do something
And then something else
And then fifty million other things
That I am not as good at
As most everyone else
And no one wants to pay me money
For my mediocre work?
...
I'll continue, I guess.
I'll continue.