A Snippet [of Thinking About You]

Everyone is someone I want to introduce to you
Every song is one I want you to hear, too
All these sights, these places
Would be better together
This girl sighs and she traces
Another imaginary endeavor

A Wish

I had a thought.
All these words
Tumbling out
Not one
What I really want to say.
Holding something back.
I had a thought.

I had a dream.
Just waiting
By the cafe
Checking
My cellphone for your message
With giddy vigor.
I had a dream.

I had a hope.
Listening
As you tell me
Your heart
Still holds I'd wanted to
Be sure was still there.
I had a hope.

I had a vision.
You and me
On a porch swing
At dusk
Sipping hot chocolate and
Laughing nervously.
I had a vision.

I have a wish.
Snowflakes falling
All around me
As I
Imagine how it would be
If I could see you...
I have a wish.

x

Little Xs.
Little sealing Xs.
Like kisses--
Little sealing kisses.
Little words I've been waiting for.
Little words I'm gonna stop waiting for soon,
And go out and catch.
Catch 'em and bring 'em home.

Peach

The peach sits on the counter.
The peach, bright orange and red and yellow
Sits on the cold cream-colored marble of the counter
And contrasts in a way that builds adrenaline in the eye--
The common man becomes the photographer.
He frames the shot in his mind.
Does he own a camera? He wonders
And glances about the room
But ultimately comes back to look at the peach.
It's almost to pretty to move, isn't it?
Almost.
But it can't just sit there forever
Looking pretty
Because it will rot and rot away to nothing.
And so instead, it's just today's gift--
Today's fleeting, lovely gift
That nourishes and
Offers up a flavor that is such that
It builds adrenaline in the tongue
Almost stinging, almost metallic
To match the magnetic strength
Attracting the eye.
Today, he knows
Is going to be a lovely day.

Untitled

Twisted up pangs in my heart,
exuberant and dull.
Sort 'em out, sort 'em out,
This one here, that one there
Set that aside,
There's no place for it yet.
The boy I used to wish I could love
The one I'm happy to love now
Love's a funny word, though,
No?
Sort 'em out.
Set aside, Set inside
Watch the rain from the window.
Watch the sun through the clouds.
Whispering:
I still know you're there.
Songs on the radio in my imagination.
Piano ballad, saucy tune
Just like words in a book
From the very edge of my memory.
Nostalgia.
Draw a line and divide the space in two:
Here's where he and his belong.
Here's the place for everyone and everything before.
Sort 'em out.
Voice in a little box,
Flower blooming out and out
And out and out
And multiplying
Until there's no more room.
Stripes kicking lazily against the bright green.
Soothing.
Words in a screen, voice in a box.
Stop trying so hard
To sort 'em out.
Gather 'em all up and spread them against
The green,
The circles,
Pressed against the stripes.
Inches from my face,
Smiling.
Smiling, and just breathing in
The scent of all of it
And of here and now.

Second Death(With Concern for Dawn)

They smiled until I tried to say what felt
This room is where I belong now
I'm standing still while everyone else
Is learning to stand strong now

For every sacrifice that's made
There's an equal and opposite price to pay
For every gift that I've been given
There's a whole lot of guilt that I'm reliving

Especially now
Sis, especially now

The hardest thing in this world is to live in it
The hardest thing is to love and to live with it
When that love is taken for granted
Outright rejected
And it shows
On those faces

Oh sis I don't suppose
You'd rather be alone

No one seems to dare to hold me close
It's like they're scared of who I might become now
They don't listen when I need them to the most
I sit and stare at all I want to break from now

Those sincere eyes send out the words
I only wish didn't have to be hers
For every gift that I've been given
There's a whole lot of guilt that I'm reliving

Can you understand
Sis, can you understand?

The hardest thing in this world is to live in it
The hardest thing's just to live and to bear with it
When thing don't go how you planned them
Intentions abandoned
They don't know
How great the pain is

Oh sis don't take the leap
I'd rather it be me

The hardest thing
In this world
Is to live in it...

A New Moon Rising

Settle your hand on mine baby
That's all you have to do to save me
After all that's come to pass
A girl lost, unloved then found so fast
Then thrown into despair only to
Be pulled back out again
I wonder now
Where should I stand

I love you
I love him
What we have
Is not what he and I did
This feeling is different
But both are true

Told myself I hate him
For so long, I nearly believed it
I want to forgive him
Wonder if I can
Wonder if I can

I'd just stopped seeing his face in dreams
You'd only just rescued me
The words inside just bring me down
The "uh oh" part, and the "why now"
What I'd begun to build with you
Is on such shaky ground
All I know is
It won't fall down

I'm supposed
To love him
Tu run back into his arms and forgive him
In a perfect world, it
Would be an easy choice

All I ever wanted
Seems to be
Just what you wanna give
Just want to get past this
Turmoil in my heart
Wonder if I...

A new moon's rising, hold me close
Black as dust, I'm scared, it shows
Coveralls, apocalypse
Cede to the past
I see your lips
Stammering out apologies
You need not say, my love


I'm not alone...

The one I truly love
Is right here in front of me